I am having a hard time. I am having to make decisions that are for the future between my son and I. My girlfriend, who is such a part of my life, is having a hard time seeing what is going to be between us. I want to be the dad I know that I can be, and yet, the decisions are very hard. I know what it feels like to be a step parent. It can be very hard, very hurtful sometimes. Children know how to be hurtful, and she is not sure she wants to be the stepmother. I have to let her make up her mind. I will have to let her go. I dont want her to hurt. That is not want I want. What I want is for my son to have a normal life. As normal as it can be. I pray, and ask for answers... I feel that my will is too involved here. I just pray. I want to give each of my boys what I can. So, I finish with the serenity prayer. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. The courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Just a side note. 21 Grams is a phenomenal movie. Intense, it makes me feel.